Fear

I'm scared. I feel so unable to control anything that's happening around me, and it terrifies me. I want to be able to help, to heal the wounds of the people I love, but I can't. All I can do is sit here and cry. I'm scared. Tonight is one of those nights. I know that because of tonight nothing will be the same. Too much happened tonight. Too much was remembered tonight. I started out sad, then angry, and now I"m just scared. I'm scared because I know that everything that happened tonight calls for me to be stronger than I've ever been before. I have to be strong for them. I'm scared because I can't help thinking...who's going to be strong for me? I'm so scared.